英文詩集
001
Don't you know that love is so difficult
I like you but you like him
He likes her but she likes me
Things are cruel to us, too
You spend the whole life to find the one
But the ideal one is never the one
So you become the lonely one
The lonely one with your puppy
The ideal one is deserted by others
Others have fun with the ideal one
but they only want to play the game of love
the pure heart
they never show
Who cares?
002
I am not the one that you like.
Not the one you may dislike
Sometimes you love me
Sometimes you deny me
But I am the one that you can't forget.
Living with others in the brain
Pieces of me show on one's mind
Record the journey of time in your life
Struggle with your past life
Living ways, habits, and interests
Happiness, sweetness, and pleasure
Anger, fury, and revenge
Sadness, trauma, and suffering
Without me, you will get into trouble
But with me, you can't escape the awful
Living with you in every moment
Until the Death takes me away
So who am I?
003
Maybe I do not belong here
But I am here, not there
Like a spirit is imprisoned in the wrong place
WRONG GNORW WRONG GNORW
Everything is wrong, the devil said.
I seem to hear what he said...
Drinking alcohol beer brandy champagne vodka
Suddenly, I saw a fascinating castle that is made of ice
I touched it because it caught my attention.
All of a sudden, I found the place is shaking
But much to my surprise, I was floated in the water
the ocean of emptiness
A few minutes later I saw a boy was crying for a help
But I didn't hear that because I am deaf to anything
Nevertheless, I heard a voice is shouting
Drinking alcohol beer brandy champagne vodka wine
Everything is not simple as you thought, the devil said
Why not drinking of hopelessness
It tastes as sweet as honey
It will make you as pretty as beauty
What did you say, I asked him
He didn't say anythin'
He said
Five, Four, Three, Two, One
and then Cut~
I found everything is just my fancy
Fancy versus Fantasy
Fantasy versus Fancy
I wake up with a big smile but
a tear is rolling down my cheek
Is it a nightmare, he said
I said I don't know dear
But he told me Are u alright?
Cuz you have drunk a dozen of beer
Much to my shock after hearing what he said
Did I?
Have I???
You don't like drinkin'
but why did you drink last night?
Have I?
Did I?
But the dialogue doesn't keep going at all.
I am confused but
I find out that I bought a dozen of beers
a dozen of beers
Am I CARZY?
I am shocked
but I try to not faint from the confusion
in the convenience store.
004
Someone likes to play his song aloud on the bus
Raining sound but the dizzy voice
Annoying and freaking berceuse
I want to tell him to stop the fuss
But I try to control to close my mouth
005
I want to sleep
but I drank more coffee today
I can't sleep
I hope I can fall asleep
I wait
one second
one minute
ten minutes
half an hour
an hour
two hours
.....
I thought one thing, two things, etc
I heard dogs barking at the outside
I imagined maybe they saw the spirit
......
After struggling so long
I still wake up
.......
O No!!!!
the watch showed it was 03:50
I still lie on the bed.
.....
I know it was the price I have to pay
my insomnia day
006
Rain keeps falling down in Taichung
just as many pockets of water falling from the sky.
007
Life is ridiculous.
Memory is fragmented.
Reality is cruel.
A funny joke is not interesting at all.
Love romance is just a fairy-tale.
008
Umbrella
An article with umbrella-shaped/
like a shield resists endless attack from Rain.
As a weapon protects human from dripping wet/
Seems a hat collects Zeus's grieved tears.
As if a mysterious veil covers unsociable people/
Is it a sacred present on a rainy day?
Is it a better invention in human days?
009
Fingernail
A trifling article likes appendix in the human body.
Not only may disturb but hurt your health.
Like an annoying but lively grain for me.
Get the harvest shorter than five days.
It won't be destroyed by the bug/
But carried with the bacteria on it.
Not a present from God.
Is a souvenir from Serpent.
010
I am an untouchable person.
Act as an out-caste in our society
My house is SEGREGATED in the village.
I must work HARD but pay LOW.
My father warned me while I was young
We can't assess to Brahman's house. It is not permitted.
Our job is climbing trees. We must climb trees as our ancestors did.
I am a sad and despairing victim in this unjust society.
One day I learn of a Marxist Party's slogan accidentally
Join Marxist Party to change your miserable destiny
But I am suspicious about its reality
Is
it truth or an unrealistic dream？
011
One day A woman meets a man
She asks him to "Touch my body"
"Why must I touch your body?" The man asks her.
I can't touch you because I'm an untouchable person.
My father has taught me
We can't touch you forever.
The woman is angry and says that Stop！
Forget what your father has taught you before
Your father is similar to my mother
They are both victims but they still follow the social law and despise themselves.
I don't care about the social law. I am not scared！
The social law is totally unfair to us
You are a strong and kindhearted single man.
I am a beautiful and independent divorcee.
Why don't you love me? Why don't you touch me?
Just do what I'm saying "Touch my body"
The man touches her body as the woman orders him
The woman thinks that Good Job!
It's time to break social law in her mind.
And
then we are not victims anymore.
012
Someone told me something on the Internet yesterday.
After hearing what she said, I'm so surprised or even I have to say.
Could I?
Shall I?
To keep going or not?
I even don't know what I want.
I am sure that I forget it.
I think I almost forget why I chose to keep studying English literature when I was 22.
I spent much more time then.
It took me so many years to realize my dream.
My dream at that time...
However, at that time, something happened
Something terrible or something worse changed my life
I think the total one I experienced or I have to say I made an effort and I spent much effort in the past was a kind of satire.
Or a verbal irony, dramatic irony, or something else maybe it was...
I don't know and I am not sure.
What it will be.
I never know.
Maybe someone knows that but I don't.
Should I stick to the status quo?
Or I just keep forth what I did then.
I am unsure.
I think that kinda question is difficult to answer.
It is hard for me to get an answer.
Cuz I even don't know which one is correct.
Just like the poem
The Road Not Taken...
013
say
love me
Say
I love me
I'm not a narcissist
narcissist
say
love me
Say love me
like the reflection of me
say
love me
say
love you
say
I love you
I love you
Ohhh~~~
say
loving you
say
loving me
not a narcissist
narcissist
say
loving you
Just loving you
Cuz you took my heart away
took my heart away
Ohhh!!! Noooo!!!
I can't control mine
my thinking of you
say
love me
wait to hear you
say love me
love me
say
love you
don't tell to me
I can't love you back
I can't love you back
Oh no!! Oh nooo!!!!
I'm hurt
after hearing your answer
the answer
make me sad
sadddd
like you tear apart my heart
my heart
now apart
into pieces
and I hear
the sound of broken
as the glass
so I know
you took my heart away
say
love me
say
I am OK. I am fine.
don't talk to me.
don't ask me.
Just let it go!!!
say love me
love me
love me
is a traumatic effect of love